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obstinacies do not trouble much. As far as obstinacy is
concerned, he understands that it is wrong. After attaining this
Gnan, the obstinacy gives ‘him’ a beating. This obstinacy is a
karmic stock that was gathered and charged in the past life. That
stock is now giving its effect in this life in the form of a beating.
Therefore, no one likes obstinacy (aadayee). But insurmountable
inner obstacle (atkan) leads to more suffering. These faults still
give you trouble in spite of having this Gnan. You should not
have this stock but once you have brought the stock with you
from the ‘market’, you cannot deny or avoid it, can you?
Whatever stock you have, it is there because you accumulated
(puran – created a cause) it in your past life, and now it will
discharge (galan – the effect of the cause created). No one is
going to accumulate any new stock after Gnan. You have to
‘purify’ your old stock through the process of just ‘seeing’ it as
it unfolds and let go of it, regardless of what that stock is.
Nevertheless from now on, should your internal state not be that
of ‘how can all the worldly interactions (vyavahar) become
cleansed’?
‘You’ are not the obstinate ‘one’
I have straightened you out! Have I not? Who was the
obstinate one? It was ‘Chandulal’, your relative-self. ‘You’ are
not Chandulal. Therefore, ‘You’ just have to say, ‘I am not this.
I am this Shuddhatma.’ Then, does your obstinacy not go away?
What do you think?
That is why this Akram Vignan (Science) has straightened
out all the householders (gruhasthis - married people). In the
traditional Kramic path, one has to become a sadhu (ascetic) in
order to become straight. The householder who becomes
straight has the solution at hand whereas otherwise in order to
become straight, he has to become a sadhu. You become aware
that this ‘Chandulal’ is obstinate and ‘I’ am straight. Therefore,
you have become straight without becoming a sadhu, have you
not? Is this Akram Vignan not wonderful!