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498 Aptavani-9 Questioner: I used to become tanmayakar in my prakruti when I did not have Gnan. Dadashri: Yes, you did it customarily and happily. What is more; you even liked it. The moment one has a thought about drinking alcohol; he becomes tanmayakar (absorbed) in it. He likes that. But what happens now after Gnan? Now the Self (potey) remains separate from within, where situations arise which the Self does not like. When dislike arises, this dislike is in the form of penance (tapa). Questioner: So, does that mean that what he previously used to like is precisely what he does not like anymore? Dadashri: Yes. Liking binds prakruti and disliking dissolves it. The unfolding karma (udaya karma) that has to be dealt with according to the unfolding (vyavasthit) is very harmful. As it is, everything is a discharge (nikali) but it is very detrimental to the goal of exposing the full Gnan of the Self. Questioner: I did not really understand that. Dadashri: Vyavasthit should be such that it supports the purusharth. Vyavasthit working against purusharth is negative vyavasthit; wrong vyavasthit. If it is not to your liking, let it be. Even if you do not like it, the fact that you do not like it, shows that it is the Atma (the Self). Where there is ‘I do not like’, means that you are there as Atma. Questioner: But vyavasthit is whatever that has come, has come, but now, what should one do? Dadashri: You have to do the purusharth in whatever comes along. There lies the strength of Pragnya - the direct light of the Soul Questioner: So when ‘he’ becomes absorbed