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once it leaves. There will not ever be any interference again. It
is not something that increases or decreases. It is a very real
thing. One will not see ‘I-ness’ (potapanu) again once it is
gone; it is gone forever. Do you feel as if it is partly gone but
it also partly remains? No, it is not like that. This ‘I-ness’ is not
something that it will return, once it leaves. To begin with, this
‘I-ness’ is something that is not likely to go. In fact, this is the
first time this subject about ‘departure of I-ness’ is even being
discussed. ‘We’ do not have any ‘I-ness’.
Questioner: What happens if one wants to bring back
the ‘I-ness’?
Dadashri: It will not come, will it? How can it return
once it is gone?
Questioner: This ‘I-ness’ is bound to go away with Your
Gnan, that is for sure, but how can it go away faster?
Dadashri: Just as we can increase the speed of a train,
we can also increase this speed if we employ the right tools
(sadhan). But You should look neither for haste nor for laziness
here. To do so, is all a form of imagination. All You have to do
is to maintain the bhaav - the inner intent that you want to get
rid of the ‘I-ness’. Having this bhaav does so much work that
the ‘I-ness’ will diminish constantly. But if you have the bhaav
of, No, there is no need to get rid of the ‘I-ness’ as long as the
worldly life is there, then that will be the case. After attaining
Gnan, ‘You’ have authority and realm over all these inner
bhaav. You do not have any authority and realm over everything
that is pending for discharge. There You have to let it discharge
(nikal) without interference.
Do you understand where Your authority and the realm
is? You have the authority and realm over the inner intent of, ‘the
‘I-ness’ has to go. The ‘I-ness’ is not needed anymore’, then
that will be the case. For how long can you make something
Yours when in fact it is not? Is it not a mistake to make