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Aptavani-9
That is when ‘I-ness’ will go away
Now, I am not telling You that You should not protect
your prakruti but You should feel that your Gnan must attain a
certain level. I am not asking for such conduct (vartan or
charitra). When will such conduct come? When this becomes
established in your conviction (pratiti or shraddha), then it will
result in gnan (knowledge). When this knowledge increases as
experience (anubhav) then it will manifest in your conduct
(vartan, charitra).
If someone were to ask you to get out of the car, there
will be an initial effect (asar) but later as things calm down from
within, you will remember Gnan. This way it will gradually gel
and solidify from within and it will fit. At first, it comes as
conviction pratiti, and later in the process of arriving at the level
of experience (anubhav), you will stumble in ‘fitting’ the Gnan
at first, but later it will come in your conduct. Even a little
experience anubhav is more than enough.
If you are asked to get out of the car once or two times
and you come back to sit without experiencing annoyance from
within, or any change in the facial expression, that is very good
also. Otherwise, are people not likely to get upset and non-
communicative (risavu)? I think that would not be the case with
you, would it? Try to do that once, if such an occasion ever
arises. Get out of the car and sit back in it without getting upset
and non-communicative or spoiling your face.
Questioner: It is not as easy as You say, Dada.
Dadashri: It cannot be easy. But what is this? Why are
‘we’ discussing this? As this matter comes into your faith and
conviction (shraddha-pratiti), it will gradually come into your
experience (anubhav).
‘We’ are not telling you to do this. You simply have to
keep this in your awareness that you will have to stop protecting