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‘plant’ has sprouted since then. This would not occur in the
presence of awareness. Everything has occurred because of
unawareness (ajagruti). There are truckloads and truckloads of
unawareness and not just unawareness related to one or two
mistakes. Such intoxication will crop up where there is
tremendous ajagruti at a very gross and superficial level;
otherwise it would never arise, how can it?
Questioner: In this matter, what kind of things should we
be aware of?
Dadashri: About everything, you must make sure that
nothing sprouts.
Questioner: So what kinds of things are included in that?
Dadashri: Do you mean why does it arise in the first
place? The fact that it sprouts is unawareness (ajagruti) itself.
The awareness lacks by that much. Why should it arise? Why
does awareness arise when kashaya occur? Your awareness
surfaces even when the other person is doing kashaya. This
intoxication (keyf) of ‘I know’ is more treacherous than
kashaya. It is suicidal. It will destroy you. A person will say, ‘I
know, but am not able to do anything.’ Intoxication of having
knowledge?! In the ignorant ‘Gnan-less’ state, there is always
the intoxication of the ego of ‘I know’. But here if intoxication
arises after attaining the knowledge of the Self, then how wrong
an understanding is that? The intoxication of having Gnan?!
Questioner: Dadaji, kashaya occur because of
circumstances. When the kashaya arises, so does the awareness
against it. It is not something that remains constantly. Whereas
this intoxication of ‘I know’ - is it something that is constantly
there within?
Dadashri: It just keeps growing. You even keep watering
it; it is also being watered constantly. There is unawareness
(ajagruti) day and night. That is what I call suicidal! Knowing
(janyoo) is that when all kinds of intoxications leave.