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according to other people’s methods and practices. We come
first and win but then we even come last too. I understood that
all this is nothing but betrayal indeed. I too had joined others in
the competition by entering the racecourse; I ran very hard and
after coming first, I then came in last. That is when I felt, ‘What
kind of madness is this? It is all a trap!’ You never know when
some unscrupulous person will destroy you. Do people not do
such things? One day you may be number one and the next day
such a person will come and make you puff and pant in the race
to no end. ‘We’ realized that a person can lose everything from
being number one and that one should not enter into such horse
races (competition).
‘We’ used to live very peacefully and in ease. Before the
roads used to be crooked; full of winding curves so inner
calculations would arise, as to which road was the shortest.
‘We’ never followed the paths everyone else followed. ‘We’
would try to look for short cuts. ‘Our’ method and practice was
different. ‘We’ never did anything just because other people did
it or because it was the traditional thing to do so. ‘Our’ method
and practice was completely different. I never painted the wall
in my house, if the wall were to get the paint on its own, then
so be it.
‘We’ say just one thing and that is, ‘there is no
competency (barkat) left in ‘us”. ‘We’ have seen the face of
competence! ‘We’ ran a lot! ‘We’ ran to no end! ‘We’ are
telling you from ‘our’ experiences of life after life, that all the
running of countless lives has been a failure and completely
worthless! I have run so hard, hard enough to be sitting on the
top but I have also suffered miserably in the process. Instead
why not run away form this racecourse! Let us discover our true
domain…it is, oh my…gigantic”!
So even if the devas (celestial beings) were to come
down and tell you, ‘We are giving you the first place in this