Aptavani-9
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Instead of calling yourself a banker with assets of as little as a
thousand dollars why not say, ‘I am not a banker, you are.’ Is
this discovery of ‘our’ not good?
I asked one person, ‘How are you going to run your
factory now that your boss has died?’ He tells me, ‘We will hire
a manager.’ So one can hire people to manage factories? So
why are you crying because the owner is dead? If you can hire
such a person, hire such an intelligent person, why not do so?
And can this (Gnan) be hired? This Gnan is the real wealth.
You can hire people can’t you? You can hire a lawyer, can you
not? If he charges 5000 rupees, then why not give him 10,
000? He will come running. He can be hired but the Self
cannot be hired. And is anyone going to hire the Self? How
can they afford that which is priceless? This is a proper and an
easy road, is it not?
And why harbor such intellect in such matters? So ‘we’
have let go from the very beginning in these matters, I had let go
of the control of the reigns and tell everyone, ‘I do not
understand anything!’ So ‘we’ are free! I also say, ‘You will not
find any intellect in me even if you were to look for it.’ They tell
me, ‘Please don’t say that.’
Now we have the control of the ‘kite’. Other people’s
‘kites’ can take a nosedive if they want but our ‘kite’ is in
control and the control is in our hands. Why enter the horse race
of these people? Each person to himself; I will take care of
myself.
And what are you going to do with this misguided intellect
(akkal) anyway? You would have sunk very deep for sure had
you gone deeper into it. It is good that you stayed away just like
me.
People come to me and tell me, ‘you show us a lot of
good things’ and I tell them, ‘no’, and in the end I even tell them,
‘I have forgotten everything. I cannot remember things anymore.’