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Aptavani-9
Dadashri: No there cannot be any racecourse in the
state of laghutam. The racecourse is in the gurutam state. So
I have no intellect (abuddha) and I am in a laghutam state and
therefore I do not have a relationship of exchange of kashaya
with anyone. There is not an iota of intellect in me.
The racecourses of the worldly life and
competitiveness (spardha)
Questioner: Everyone has a desire to be something, and
here around you, we have the desire of not wanting to be
anything, we want to be free from any semblance of superiority
(visheshata). In the worldly interactions, one feels, ‘I am
something. And I want to be something.’
Dadashri: That is because they enter a racecourse there,
do they not? He wants to run because so many other horses are
running. Hey you! You are sick so why don’t you relax and take
it easy? All the others are strong horses, besides only the one
who comes first will get the prize and the rest will die huffing and
puffing.
So, not even a fool would take part in a competition
(racecourse). Yes if they were going to award five hundred
prizes or so, then one can believe that he may get lucky and win
a prize. But you are not going to come first, so why are you in
the competition? Go home and go to sleep. Who would enter
the competition? How can you enter their racecourse? Some
horses may be so strong from a diet of chick peas (garbanzo
beans) while others may be eating grass.
Therefore, I did not enter the racecourse of the worldly
life. That is how I found this Lord within.
And the prize goes only to the one who comes first,
does it not? The rest are left wandering around life after life.
They die huffing and puffing and gain nothing. How can one
enter a racecourse of the world with that kind of justice? What
do you think?