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(something that possess a person) is very big. This lafru of
maan i.e. wanting importance and recognition is better; it is
docile. Someone will come and tell you, ‘why are you walking
around with your chest inflated?’ Will people not comment this
way? You yourself may comment to a maani, ‘Even I don’t
walk around with inflated chest when I am working, so why are
you?’ But no one will make a comment or say anything to a
nirmaani. The state of a nirmaani is a state of subtle ego.
What does this mean? It means his external ‘horns’ have been
cut off but his internal ones still remain. Neither external nor
internal ‘horns’ are acceptable. Internal horns will create an
internal sting but he does not hurt anyone externally, does he?
For him everything on the outside is clean and proper. His
servants take out the bedbugs and mosquitoes for him, so he
does not have anything bothering him on the outside and
neither does he have any external problems or afflictions. But
how will the inner stinging leave him alone? The inner stinging
is more intense. Have you ever seen or experienced inner
stinging?
Questioner: I have seen it and experienced it too.
Dadashri: So one will have to become ego-free, being
nirmaani alone will not do.
Nirmohi: the ego of being without attraction
or infatuation
Questioner: Dada then there is another word ‘nirmohi’
that needs clarification.
Dadashri: Nirmohi is not a complete word. Nirmohi
does not mean that one is completely without attachment. We
cannot use the word nirmohi for a person whose illusion has
gone away completely. Therefore, nirmohi is not a state of the
end of his illusion (moha). We can use the word anasakta,
which means free from fascination or infatuation, but we cannot
use the word nirmohi. Where is the word nirmohi applicable?