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Aptavani-9 261 greed (lalacha) to move away from Dada in an independent direction. You have now become independent; you are not dependent are you? It would be a different matter if you were suppressed or controlled by me. It is a different matter if you were under the control of those other gurus and you tried to be independent. Here no one is suppressed, there is no control over you and I even say, ‘I am everyone’s disciple’, so where is the problem? But because of the habit of endless past lives, one has fun in being independent; there is interest in that. Let go of this interest! Why don’t you remain only in this satsang? Questioner: But Dada, rather than independence, it is to show off to people ‘I know something’. Dadashri: That is the problem, he believes ‘I know everything’ and yet he knows nothing. Now spend one life in total surrender (adheenta) to the Gnani. Questioner: It is better to remain surrendered; at least we will not have any externally induced problems (upadhi). Dadashri: Yes, no upadhi. Everyone has surrendered and is free from upadhi. But if someone has a root that is crooked, it will not refrain from playing its part. He will start a different group. He will dance to a different tune. Life surrender to gnan There are many who tell me, ‘Do you not hold back some ‘keys’ with you?’ Why would I hang on to some keys? I would do that only if I want to remain as a guru and show my superiority. But I neither want to be anyone’s guru nor do I want to be a superior. To me, you are the guru now. Those who want to be gurus will not bestow their full knowledge (gnan) on to others. They do that so that their disciples will not run away and their ‘business’ can remain in operation. And here, everyone has freedom. I tell those who live