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176 Aptavani-9 You need awareness, not an intense mental note Questioner: In short, the machinery of intense mental note will not remain if there is awareness (jagruti). Dadashri: It will not remain. The problem lies in the awareness becoming dim. You have to bring on the awareness, and not keep any intense mental note. If one does this, then he becomes that much aware. Or you can increase awareness by watching ‘us’. A person may say anything to this ‘Dadaji’ and yet he will not see a single change in expression on ‘our’ face. Why is that so? Hey you! What kind of results are you looking for here? ‘We’ have not written an assay on it, an essay starts from a note, and for a note you need a notebook, and we never even keep a notebook! Many such people come and go. Regardless of what ‘we’ tell them on their face, that is not what ‘we’ believe. He is a Shuddhatma. He is not at all at fault! He is completely faultless (nirdosh) on the outside and he is a Shuddhatma within. That is ‘our’ vision when ‘we’ speak. As it is, this is ‘our’ colloquial Patidar language and language cannot go away, can it? However, ‘we’ do not keep a note. So all this has to be understood. Making intense mental notes (nondha) is what causes more damage. Especially these vaniks (those who make a living through their speech and intellect, mostly businessman in India), they keep a notebook of intense mental notes. Women also keep large notebooks. ‘Dad said this and mom was saying this.’ So everyone keeps notes; they do not let go of these notebooks. They have still kept the notebooks, just the way they were before attaining this Gnan. They have let go of the rest of the things. Where there is an intense mental note there is the sting Some human beings do not keep opinions about others but they keep more intense mental notes. They keep only the