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than forget.’ It is because he feels that, it is his basis for living.
Then if you ask him, ‘will it work if we take away your food?’
He will say, ‘No, I do need the food.’ And yet keeping notes
keeps him going. Keeping intense mental notes will not let go
of anything.
‘We’ are separate from the one making the
note
An intense mental note (nondha) is made because there
remains a tanto (tanto is a link connected to a specific incident,
internal or external.) If a person continues to be upset and non-
communicative (risavu); that is a tanto within him. One cannot
see the tanto (link); it is not evident. But when one makes a
nondha, then know that the link (tanto) exists there.
If someone insulted you yesterday and you make an
intense mental note of it, then I will know that you have a tanto.
This tanto – this link is a very dangerous thing to have. There
should not be any nondha (intense mental note), at all. The
essence of all this is that nothing happens on its own; everything
is vyavasthit. How can there be a nondha in the face of
vyavasthit? A link of intense mental note is a tanto.
Questioner: Even when we do not have a habit of doing
so, we end up making an intense mental note.
Dadashri: Yes, that will happen but you have to erase
it later by saying, ‘making an intense mental note was a
mistake’. Just by saying this, it will be erased. You should be
of the opinion that You are separate from the one taking the
note. Then You are not one (in agreement) with the one
making that note. Therefore, You are not of that vote and
opinion. If You do not ‘say anything’ from within then it implies
that You are in agreement with the opinion of the note. This
note-making is an age-old habit but this Gnan is such that no
note will remain. All your current problems are due to the
intense mental notes.