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market, even then your mind you will say, ‘Don’t do that…don’t
do that.’ So if a lawyer wants to do anything, suspicions will first
arise in him saying, ‘If I do that, such and such a law will apply
to me,’ and so he will miss the target and he will end up
somewhere else.
Such is the evident problem of the excessive knowledge
that you have attained. That is why it continues to push and prod
you. One continues to suffer because of this ‘knowing’. That is
why ‘we’ say to you to say, ‘I do not know anything.’ Destroy
all the ‘goods’ within you by doing this. They are like chewed
pieces of sugarcane which have been discarded. It has not
helped you at all. You simply believe it has, but it has not been
of any help at all. Your worries have not decreased, your ego
has not gone down and neither have your anger-pride-deceit-
greed. So just get rid of all the ‘quarrelsome goods’ within you
that have accumulated from your countless past lives. That is
why ‘we’ tell you to keep the intent (bhaav) of, ‘I do not know
anything.’ All the knowledge you have makes you suffer; it has
not reduced your kashayas of anger-pride-deceit-pride, has it?
So, that means that you have not really known anything. If you
had, then your kashayas would not be so evident to others.
Nevertheless, even in the situation where your kashayas are not
evident on the outside, you do not achieve anything because you
never know when the not-so-evident kashayas, will erupt
again. You keep feeding them through your intellect but that
has led you to suffer in countless past lives. That is why, you
will find a solution if you have the inner intent of, ‘I do not
know anything.’
One seeker had read many scriptures. When he came to
receive this Gnan, I told him, ‘Can you show me the clay
container that holds your doodhpaak (a delicacy of sweet
milk)?’ When he showed me what he had, I told to him, ‘If you
take this to a vendor who sells hot peppers and you ask him if
it was okay for you to put his hot peppers in it, he will tell you,