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140 Aptavani-9 that which perpetuate worldly troubles whole nightlong. So how can they even think about the Self? Can one have thoughts about the Self in his private bedroom? I asked one person, ‘What is your meditation (dhyan) before you go to sleep?’ He replied, ‘It is ten thirty now so should I not go to sleep?’ Hey you!! You are going to sleep without earning anything? ‘Tell me what you earned today?’ I asked him and he replied, ‘At least I do something, she does not do anything.’ I asked her and she proceeded to tell me, ‘He does not do anything either.’ This is how people talk. Questioner: Yes, that is how people look at things rather than looking at themselves. Dadashri: All this is nothing but deceit! The entire world lives in suspicion without exception. Their suspicions never ventures into ‘what is the Soul?’ They have uncertainties about, ‘I wonder if the Soul is like this? Or maybe it is like that?’ Uncertainty always remains and that gives rise to all kinds of suspicions and more suspicions. That is when suspicions and uncertainties go away Questioner: I am not saying that I have become free from suspicions, but suspicion does not arise within. Dadashri: Yes, they may not arise, that is a different matter. You will feel that way for a certain period of time. Then when difficulties come, suspicions will arise again. Does anything ever remain the same? Just as day and night keep changing, time keeps changing, circumstances will constantly change. Therefore when will man’s suspicions leave? They will leave when he becomes vitarag (free from all attachments) and nirbhay (fearless). Otherwise, suspicions will not leave. As long as there is peace, it will appear to be comforting and easy. When external problems arise, turmoil and restlessness begins.