126 Aptavani-9
Dadashri: Get rid of the awareness? Do you want to get rid of awareness or suspicion?
Questioner: Only the suspicion.
Dadashri: Yes, you want to keep the awareness, do you not?‘ We’ have removed all roots of suspicion. Have you removed it from its main root or have you kept some of it?
Questioner: A lot of introspection was going on about suspicion within.
Dadashri: But have you not uprooted it yet?
Questioner: Today, I found a nimit( external evidence) through Dada.
Dadashri: Yes that must be the case otherwise such talks would not surface. Besides, do I talk about this only at certain times? It comes out only when all the evidences come together. It comes out only when an end to it is approaching, both for you and for the other person. The time for you to have a closure must be here, only then would such talks come out.
Otherwise, suspicion will not let you sleep the whole nightlong.
Questioner: It eats away on the inside and even after all the suffering; it still does not go away.
Dadashri: What do you gain out of it? Questioner: There is no gain.
Dadashri: Yet it still remains, does it not? Why did this discussion occur?‘ We’ did not realize how rampant suspicion is. Because of the Gnan‘ we’ have given you, you can get rid of little things yourself; whatever bites you, you can get rid of. Now that you have Gnan, would you not be able to tell when something is gnawing away at you? That which hurts and jabs you from within like a jagged pebble, would You not know about it? Would You not get rid of it? Would You allow it to stay?