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Aptavani-9
Dadashri: That is what happens within the body. Many
of the jivas (the living micro organisms) that live within the body
are killed when you become emotional, and for that you incur a
karmic liability and the second liability is the external problems
(upadhi) that will be caused by the udvega itself.
What is udvega like? It makes one jump in front of a
train, into a river or it makes one take an overdose. Udvega
means the rising of motion leading to extreme emotional
reactions in one’s mind and then one tries to commit suicide. He
will drink poison. ‘You fool, you emptied the whole bottle?’ He
will say, ‘Yes I drank it all.’
A man with udvega will not survive. When a person is in
udvega, it will not let him come to do darshan here. Udvega
is a big thing. Not everyone has seen udvega. Because of this
Gnan, it will all pass in the form of a discharge. So tell the
udvega, ‘However many of you want to come, come on as long
as this body is strong. Do not come when this body is old.’ Let
them come as long as you have the strength. You can fight them
off now.
Move away from that aspect of your
relationship which causes udvega
Questioner: So what is the solution for this udvega?
Dadashri: First, you have to find the instrument (nimit)
behind it. Just thinking about a destructive person will give rise
to udvega. In such cases, move away from the situation or get
rid of anything that causes udvega even if it is made of gold. It
is not your relative. Anything that causes emotional agitation in
you cannot be related to you. The real thing is that which gives
you peace. The slightest cause of udvega is not the path of
liberation. You should remain only in vega – you should remain
only in motion.
If something causes udvega, for example if your son is