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Aptavani-9
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Udvega (emotional agitation) : Shanka
(suspicion) : Nondha (making a deep intense
mental note)
Against emotional agitation : udvega
So become straight (sarad) like a child if you want to
attain moksha. A child does things without any understanding
and the Gnani Purush does it with an understanding that is all.
Both are childlike and innocent. Does the worldly life not
continue for a child even though he has no worldly understanding?
The child’s life runs very well. In fact, his worldly life gets worse
as he begins to understand. The Gnani Purush is straight (sarad)
like a child. Obstinacy (aadayee) is a form of ego; an ego that
says I don’t want to be straight and I want to do it my way.
Obstinacy is a result of wanting to have one’s own way.
Obstinacy will go away in a person who does things according
to the will of others.
Questioner: When events do not occur as one has
planned and willed; he becomes agitated and emotional (udvega).
Dadashri: Events never occur as one wishes. Therefore,
before throwing the dice just think that they are going to fall the
wrong way. Thereafter, whichever dice falls the right way, is
correct. But if we say that all four must fall my way, then that
day will never come and there will be entanglements, uneasiness,
and emotional agitation (udvega). Instead, by saying in advance,
‘all four of you fall the wrong way’ then when one or two fall
the right way, you will be pleased with the results and feel easy.
So the value is in making the right internal adjustments.