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(nirabhimaani) and sees no faults in anyone, and takes upon
himself the suffering of other people, then you can say that he
has become free. The unhappiness of the worldly life does not
affect the Self-realized being (Atmagnani).
After attaining the Atma, even if your fever goes up by
five degrees, the Atma remains separate. As your fever increases,
the Atma stays separate, and you will continue to experience
that separation for days.
A man who had been paralyzed was saying, ‘They all
come to see me, but I myself am seeing the one who has been
paralyzed, that this is what has happened to my legs, this is what
has happened to my arms. Even I keep observing all that!’
Therefore he is himself the seer, and even those who came to
visit were also seers! That is the effect of this Gnan. The effect
of Gnan is like this in spite of the paralysis. And if the Gnan
was not there, it would be, ‘I am paralyzed, I have a fever’ and
that would be a sign of dying!
If you say, ‘It is happening to me’, then who would do the
repairing? And if the I becomes freed from that, it is possible
that it can repair on its own. It is one of Nature’s rules, that it
would get repaired immediately.
So when can you say that the Atma has been attained?
I will show you the signs, that after attaining the Atma, if your
body is aching or your head is hurting, even then you will
experience a state of well-being, unaffected by external sources
(samadhi) within. If someone is verbally abusing you from the
outside, even then you experience samadhi. When even in the
midst of pain and sorrow (dukh), you experience a blissful state
(samadhi) – that is the mark of Self-realization (Atmagnan).
This would not be found in this present age (kaad); but
nevertheless, it has happened!
After attaining the Atma, the experiences that you have at