Aptavani-6
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People are not attracted to you because of the atkan
within. Attraction should occur, and then the words that come
out will be considered the eternal words (brahmavakya).
Therefore, find out where the atkan lies. Others too have the
experience, awareness and conviction (anubhav, laksha and
pratiti) of the Self, but why does the attraction not increase?
Should one not become attractive to others in this world? Instant
attraction means instant; it should not appear to be ‘on credit,’
should it? So you should look for all the reasons within. Atkan
is such that if one does not see a ‘hotel’ (that which tempts him)
for ten days, then there is no problem, but the minute he sees
one, he will run into it. Circumstances come together and he is
tempted and tickled!
If you have helped someone stop drinking alcohol, then
when he sits in satsang he will feel at peace. He will forget
alcohol for several days, then one day he goes out with you for
a walk and he reads a sign, ‘Liquor Bar,’ and immediately a
change will come about within him. He feels that temptation of
exciting pleasure (galgalia) within. He will somehow deceive
you; he will tell you he has to use the restroom and that he will
be back in a little while. Hey, you! You are talking about using
the restroom now? You will understand that he has been aroused.
He will somehow manage to find an excuse to slip in through the
back door and take a shot or two of alcohol. Only then will the
atkan leave him.
Do you understand this atkan (inner blockade)? Atkan
will make you deluded (murchhit); make you lose awareness.
For the duration of that period, five to ten minutes, one loses all
awareness of Gnan and vision (darshan) of the Self; it renders
one completely deluded.
Atkan versus Heavy Karma
Questioner: Is nikachit karma (karma that is so heavy
that it has to be suffered) the same as atkan?