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owner hits the horse, it will even roll the carriage over.
Likewise, if a human being becomes deluded( murchhit) with what he sees, an atkan( major blockade of inner obstruction) is formed there. That atkan will not go away; he may be someone who is not likely to become deluded anywhere else, but when he comes to that particular‘ place’ of his inner blockade( atkan), he will become deluded again. He will forget the Gnan, his awareness and everything, and he will make mistakes. That is why Kaviraj says:
‘ One dangles because of the inner blockade, the dangling leads to wandering. On the problem of wandering, spray the liberating medicine from the feet-grace of the Gnani Purush’
‘ Atkan thi latkan, latkan thi bhatkan. Bhatkan ni khatkan par, chhaton charan-rajkan’
Now if one wants to escape from the life after life wanderings, then surrender at the feet of the Gnani and bring about a solution so that the fear of atkan no longer remains.
The Gnani Purush Removes Atkan
So there is a major blockade of inner obstruction( atkan) in everyone and that is why he is stuck here. One has to look for that atkan and find out its nature. It causes wandering for endless lifetimes. That is the only thing, nothing else. Atkan means to become deluded( murchhit). It means to lose the awareness of the Self. Atkan does not apply to every situation in life. When one leaves home, he does not get into quarrels everywhere; he does not do attachment-abhorrence( raag-dwesh) everywhere. I give this analogy of the horse for your understanding. One can find one’ s atkan if one looks for it; he will discover where he becomes deluded, he will discover in which instances or places he loses the awareness of who he is.