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When the mind takes a turn within with an initial effect, do not proceed in that direction. When there is such twist and stress (amde chadhavu), the bliss of the Self is veiled. Then there is unhappiness followed by hurt and inner burning, followed by suffocation, and finally worries set in. But if the root is removed before it sprouts, it will prevent a tree of misery! Because one loses awareness of what is beneficial and detrimental to one’s self, the mind is utilized in any and every which way, and it gets out of control! This is how restlessness of the mind increases; so who is at fault here? As long as there is ignorance, there is ruling of the ego over the mind and for that reason, there is no ‘control’ over the mind. After Self- realization, the realm of the Self starts, and then spiritual effort (purusharth) arises and the mind is contained. If both ‘knowing and seeing’ are present at every moment, infinite bliss prevails. One ‘knows’ everything that happens; one can ‘know’ of what happened in the mind, what words were spoken, what kind of behavior took place; however, because one does not ‘see’ who the doer is and who the real Self is, the experience of bliss is hindered. Our focused awareness of speech, that is to say, (our) upayog of speech, is to ‘see’ ‘whose ego has been hurt by our speech and how it has been hurt. Why does our speech hurt others? It is not the words in the speech that hurt the other person; it is the ego behind the speech that ignites the burn! To hold, ‘I am right,’ is the protection of the ego. The ego is not to be protected; the ego is such that it protects itself! Not a single word should be used to make fun of others. Not a single word should be used for selfish intents or for taking advantage of others. When there is no misuse of words – when not a single word is used with the intent of getting respect; that is when one’s power of speech will develop. 19