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others, but his awareness does not go beyond the current event.
If every activity is carried out with awareness, then it will benefit
the next life. Otherwise, all he does goes into ‘sleep state,’ that
is to say it goes to waste because of unawareness. All donations
he gives go into sleep, unawareness. Otherwise, even a donation
of four pennies given with awareness is more than enough! When
a person gives a donation with the desire of wanting fame and
recognition in return, it all goes into ‘sleep’ – unawareness. The
one who gives a donation for the benefit of his future life is
considered to be relatively ‘awake.’ One should have awareness
of benefit-harm (hita-ahita) to the self. How is it awareness
when he gives donations but has no clue about his next life?
If one only understands every word, its meaning, its precise
definition, then his work will be done; such are the words of the
enlightened beings called Vitarag Lords.
Pure Awareness in Worldly Life
What do you have to do after you attain Self-realization,
knowledge of the Self?
You now have to maintain awareness (upayog). Until now
you never had the direct, pure awareness of the Self. You were
‘dancing’ according to your relative-self (prakruti) and then you
claimed, ‘I danced! I made the donation! I did this…I did that.
I did so much service!’ Now You have attained the Self, so You
have to be in that direct, pure awareness of the Self. You have
become the Self (a purush) and the relative-self (prakruti) has
been separated and disconnected. However, the prakruti is not
going to refrain from doing its part; it is not going to let go. And
You, the purush, have to remain in purusharth; be the Self. It
means You have to ‘do’ the purusharth. You have to remain
within the Agnas, the special directives that the Gnani Purush has
given you; remain in Your upayog, in the awareness as the Self.
What does upayog mean? When you are out walking and
there are dogs, cats and donkeys passing by but you see them