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Aptavani-5
Wrong Belief of Doership
One knows all the scriptures and is familiar with them, but
what is he ignorant of? The Self! He has come to know
everything but he remains ignorant of the Self. His very belief is,
‘If only I do it, then it will get done.’ What is he saying? Hey
you! Go sit on coals! It will get done on its own. Will a person
not automatically get blisters if he sits on coals? On the contrary,
in knowing everything else (other than the Self), the ego
increases!
The doer is subject to bondage of karmas. Anything and
everything one has done is all bondage. Whether it is renouncing
(tyaag) or acquiring (grahan); it is all bondage. Whatever you
have taken, you will have to give back and whatever you have
given, you will have to take back. You may let go of money you
lent to someone but you will have to accept the effect of
renouncing; when it comes.
Questioner: The aim of all scriptures is to experience the
Self, is it not? Then why does that not happen? Why does the
egoism increase?
Dadashri: The increase in egoism is fine because it is a
development of one sort. The final degree in college is that of
Ph.D., but not everyone seeking it becomes qualified. Everyone
develops slowly, that is fine too. Even the increasing ego is fine.
Amidst all these, those two to four who are in the final grade
meet a Gnani Purush and pass. Until then, this is how they
continue to develop.
First, the ego arises. The ego of people outside India is
natural and spontaneous (sahaj). What is their egoism like? If
they have to go somewhere they do egoism of going there, and
where they are not supposed to go they do egoism of not going,
whereas Indian people will go where they are not supposed to
go and where they are supposed to go, they will refuse to go.
Ours is vikalpi (excessive, unnatural) egoism. They (non-