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became startled as he saw me and commented, ‘you are eating
it like a snack!’ I replied, ‘You know! You have to drink the
medicine just like a cup of tea. Unnecessary fear has taken hold
of you.’ From then onwards he started to drink his bitter
medicine like he did tea. It is all possible if someone is there to
show you the way. You need someone to show you. If I show
you a way to stick your finger in a fire, you will begin to do so
too. You just need someone to show you how. Nothing touches
or hinders the Self, so be the Self. Nirlep (non-smearable),
asang (free from association), not even the association of fire
affects it, so then how can it be affected by any physical
suffering? Therefore, hang on to this nature of the Self.
And just keep ‘seeing’ that it does not result in a state of
the non-Self (par-parinati). What is par-parinati? Par-
parinati is to believe the effects of the non-Self to be of the
Self. A headache is the effect of the non-Self (par-parinaam)
and to make a statement, ‘It hurts me’, is called par-parinati.
Those who do not have the effect of the Self (swa-parinaam),
what else will they see except the effect of the non-Self? After
Self-realization, ‘swa’ (the Self) comes in your hands. The
existence of anger, pride, deceit and greed (krodh-maan-
maya-lobh) ceases. Anger, pride, deceit and greed are called
kashays (that which hurts the Self).
If you want moksha, it is like taking on the highest of
challenges. Valour is valour. Not even an atom bomb can affect
You; that is valour and fearlessness. And if you are a
Shuddhatma (the pure Self), if You remain in the state of the
Self that I have given You, then nothing will touch you. Neither
fire nor water will touch You.
You have now become nihshank (doubt-free). Now
remain in my Agnas (special directives) and live out your life.
Let this body go if and when it wants to. Let them cut off your
ear if they want to. You have to give up your body complex
(pudgal). It is not Yours. That which is not Yours to begin with