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reaction to kashay). In the case of greed however, one loses
complete self-control and awareness. And in this situation there
is more asaiyam (expression of kashay; discomposure). Then
later, when the awareness comes, one fourth of the saiyam will
arise. The Vaniks (business class) have a large tuber (granthi;
knot) of avarice, and Kshatriyas (the warrior class) have a large
tuber (granthi) of pride. One is not able to maintain saiyam in
the kashay in which one has a large tuber (granthi). In that
case, one has to come into purusharth dharma (be the Self
through the Five Agnas), and in the state of parakram
(extraordinary effort as the Self).
When confronted with situations that create internal
suffering (parishah) and external suffering (upsarga) one does
not let it affect him, and if the suffering does arise, to ‘know’
that, it is saiyam. To ‘know’ the suffering is saiyam. Lord
Mahavir just ‘knew’ of His suffering; He did not suffer. He
suffered only “dramatically” (with the prevailing exact knowledge
of the Self and the non-Self).