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mind that does not react to ‘evidences’ of anger, pride, deceit
and greed, is dependent on purusharth.
Saiyam (absence of kashay: anger-pride-deceit-greed)
should prevail amidst intense adverse situations.
One lady tells me, “Dada, my husband slapped me last
night.” I asked her, “Then what did you tell him?” She replied,
“I turned the other cheek for him.” I asked, “What was your
inner state at that time?” She told me, “Completely peaceful. I
did not have even a single negative thought. Your Gnan was
present.”
This is called saiyam. Everyone in the world suffers pain
and adversity with tears, and the Gnani suffers it with a smile.
You will have to suffer (bhogavavoo) it, will you not?
The Energy of the Self Will Manifest Only with
Saiyam
If one remains in such a saiyam (absence of kashay) just
once, it will give rise to enough energy within to practice saiyam
twice. Then the power of two will generate four times, and four
will generate sixteen times the energy. It is a rule of multiplication.
In all that, the Self has infinite energy. That energy starts to
manifest as one comes into saiyam.
What is swanubhav (experience of the Self) state? After
attaining the Atma (Self), as much as one remains in saiyam,
that much is the state of the experience of the Self (swanubhav).
The one who has a fraction of that will attain the complete state.
Even the Lord has praised the one with saiyam. Such a
one is worthy of darshan, he has conquered death.
Questioner: How has he conquered death?
Dadashri: When one does not have the fear of dying,
one is considered to have conquered death.