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is a ‘record’. In this time cycle (kaad), records will play badly.
Regardless of however long or how much the other person’s
‘record’ plays, but if you consider it a ‘record’ and continue to
listen, and the other person gets tired, then realize that you have
indeed digested the real Gnan. Kashays (anger, pride, deceit
and greed) can never be conquered through kashays. They can
only be conquered through equanimity (samata).
There should be no desire (bhavna) towards eating or
anything else. Hey! Not even for pudgalik sukh (body’s
pleasures). That would be borrowed happiness that you cannot
afford. And when collection time comes around, you will not be
able to pay it back. The pudgal itself is vitarag. The moment
you bring it, the borrowing of happiness begins.