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Aptavani-4
Dadashri: Are you the one that does the dhyan or does
someone else do it?
Questioner: I do it.
Dadashri: Does it ever happen, that you can’t do it?
Questioner: Yes, it does.
Dadashri: There is a reason for it. As long as you are
‘Chandubhai,’ no work gets done correctly. How true is it, that
you are ‘Chandubhai’?
Questioner: A hundred percent.
Dadashri: As long as you have this wrong belief of, ‘I
am ‘Chandubhai’, for that length of time the egoism of, “I did
this much, I did this,” will be there. Wherever you “do”
something, it gives rise to the egoism of ‘doership’ there. And
as this egoism increases, it will drive the Lord (the Self) further
away. If you want to know (experience) the state of the
absolute Self (Parmatma), it will only happen if the egoism
goes away.
Dhyan is something which no one knows how to do.
Anything that has to be “done”, is done through ego and
therefore, it is not dhyan. It is ekagrata (concentration). Dhyan
is where the ego is absent. It cannot be done through the ego.
Dhyan is something that has to be understood, it is not
something that has to be “done”. There is a great deal of
difference between dhyan and ekagrata. You need ego for
ekagrata. Dhyan is untouched by the ego. If the ego increases
or decreases, does that not remain in your dhyan?
Questioner: Yes.
Dadashri: To be aware of whether the ego increased or
decreased is called dhyan. Even in artadhyan and raudradhyan,
the ego is not used.