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Aptavani-2
where did this happiness come from?” It is because all
machinery of the mind, intellect, ego and chit, within him came
to a standstill; the machinery driven by the ego came to a halt
and happiness emerged the moment it stopped. That is why one
feels, ‘I had wonderful sleep. I had wonderful sleep.’
A strong desire for moksha
Dadashri : Do you have a desire to attain moksha or to
go to some other place? Where does your desire lie?
Questioner : I have no desire for anything except
liberation.
Dadashri : If you have a desire for liberation and at the
same time you see another desire, then realize that you still have
other desires that surface occasionally. It’s like having two
people in your home, for the most part you see only one and the
same person everyday, but once in a while you see the other
person. Do you then not realize that there is another person
there too? Would you not know that? So do you see something
else too within you?
Questioner : I do see sometimes.
Dadashri : Is there one or two?
Questioner : I don’t know.
Dadashri : You will have to look into that. There is
nothing to stop the one who desires only moksha. No one can
stop him if he has a strong desire for only moksha. The Gnani
will go to his home. He will ask, “Will I need to go to Gnani?
Would I not have to meet him?” The answer is no, because his
desire itself will bring the Gnani to him. Gnani is an instrument.
Everything will come to the one who has a strong desire for
moksha and nothing else. But if there are other hidden desires,
any deceitful intent (pol; spiritual slack within), then he will not
attain anything. However, when the inner deceit become