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anything; His renunciation was natural and spontaneous as an
effect in his life on earth. Renunciation was his natural state. This
is because the Lord was in mahavrat. Mahavrat means that
which is part of one’s state. He did not have to renounce
anything. If he ‘did’ renounce then that would not have counted
as a vrat (vow). There is a big difference between undergoing
the act of renunciation and renunciation being an integral part of
one’s conduct. The two are completely different. A person, for
whom renunciation is inherent in his conduct, will not even
remember what he renounced.
The current ascetics, who renounce, keep track of all the
things they leave behind. They will tell you, “I have left behind
three children, a wife, huge homes, and enormous wealth.’ They
are aware of all they leave behind. How can you say they have
renounced when they cannot even forget what they have
renounced? The Lord considers that which one forgets naturally
as vrat, not renouncing (tyaga). There is anuvrat and there is
mahavrat. He has said for the Jains to do anuvrat. Whatever
becomes an integral part of one’s conduct is the same as having
come into anuvrat. When a person renounces the worldly life, he
will have the intoxication of the ego (keyf) of having renounced
and whatever he renounced will always remain on his mind: ‘I
renounced so much. I renounced this way and that way.’ He can
only find a solution to this entanglement if he understands all this.
‘We’ never remember any such things. I never have thoughts of
money or sex at all, but how can people believe this?
This is a completely different kind of calculation. The
number in your multiplication, your ‘figure’ is permanent (the real
I is the soul) and you are trying to multiply with a ‘number’ that
is temporary (the relative I – I am her husband…I am father),
whereas both my numbers are permanent and therefore my
multiplications have a solution. However, when you multiply,
your one temporary number keeps replacing the previous
temporary number and therefore your multiplications will never