Aptavani-2
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‘We’ have natural conformity with all the mahavrats. ‘We’
eat, drink, and live a worldly life and yet ‘we’ are in the state
of complete conformity with the five major vows. Whatever
anuvrat one has attained is the distance he has covered in
anuvrat, however he still has to cover the distance whereby he
will attain complete conformity to the mahavrat too, will he not?
Then he will have a glimpse of the Soul. After completion of the
five major vows, he will get the glimpse of the energy of the Self
(atma shakti). Upon attaining of five mahavrats, only the
pratyakhyani kashays remain. Pratyakhyani kashays are faults
for which pratyakhyan i.e. the resolve to never repeat the
mistakes are on going. The rest of the kashays become light and
will eventually cease to exist; the Lord has referred to these as
pratyakhyan avaran (a veil that remains due to the need to
continue pratyakhyan). What do ‘we’ call it? ‘We’ call it the
nature of the habits of the mind, body and speech. By whatever
degree the nature of these habits dissolve, that much of it is gone
and the rest remain. What does the pratyakhyan-avaran state?
It states that ‘You have done many rituals of pacchakhaan
(making a firm decision) still the veil of ignorance remains
(avaran). And so you will have to do pacchakhaan for the
ignorance.’ There may be one or two such faults but at least you
don’t have the faults of your entire life! Samkit; the state of Self-
realization, the state of right vision is a different state altogether.
There is no such thing as samkit in penance, renunciation etc.
The mahavrat itself is samkit; it is a state where there is natural
conformity to the mahavrat.
Do all renunciants not also practice these vows? They do,
but do their minds not remain uncontained? And because their
mind remains uncontained, their kashays (anger, pride, deceit
and greed) are openly evident to all. When the kashays are not
visibly evident, we know that they are in a state of
pratyakhyanavaran. Pratyakhyanavaran kashaya means that
kashays are not visible to others. The kashays have become so