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Aptavani-2
Ego : Ahamkar
If a train is stuck, some foolish one will comment, “The
railway people are useless. They should all be fired!” You foolish
people, who are you condemning? The workers and the train
are both vitarags (they are impartial). Nevertheless, the ego will
not refrain from playing its role. We have become free from all
such misunderstanding after Gnan. Outside there are storms of
misunderstanding. When the gutters become full with water,
people complain and curse the employees of the municipality,
“You people do not clean out the gutters!”
If a housewife buys lentils, which do not cook well, she
curses the grocer and if it comes to her mind, she will even curse
the farmers! She attacks so many people this way. If you tell her
to check with the neighbor, she will find that her neighbor does
not have any problems with her lentils! However, she has a habit
of attacking and accusing people. If her cooking turns out good,
she will tell everyone in the house. That is ego. Attacking is also
ego. This ego says, “I am something.” If you ask, “What are
you?” She will say, “I don’t exactly know, but I know I am
something!”
At Diwali the host serves snacks with good intent (bhaav)
but a guest may say with resentment, “I don’t care for this. I
don’t like it”; that is an ugly ego. On this auspicious day of
Diwali, if he takes just a small amount of that snack, he will not
hurt the host. Then his ego will appear good. ‘We’ would drink
even poison if it was served to ‘us’ with good intention. Yes,
‘we’ have solutions for everything.
What is Akram Gnani? Akram Gnani’s ego is very