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from the Gnani Purush, so that one will not encounter any
problems later.
Influx and discharge of thoughts
If too many thoughts arise within and one remains
engrossed in them, then it causes inflow of karma (ashrav)
which creates bondage (bandha). If one remains the knower-
seer (gnata-drashta) of the thoughts, then the karma will
discharge (nirjara) and there is blockage against an inflow
(samvar) of new karmic matter. Everyone has thoughts. Tubers
of thoughts that one has interest in can explode like untimely
bombs. They may do so even at three in the morning, and some
may even wake you up before they sprout. Even with dreams,
no matter what, you will be awakened first. It all takes place in
a sequence. When the circumstance is right and the tuber of
something you like sprouts, and when you ‘read’ it and become
one with it, then karmas will bind you. However, if you read it
but let it pass, it will not come back again. Thoughts come from
the mind and they are completely separate from You, but you
become one with them (tanmayakar). Atmadharma is to remain
as the Self and not become one with the thoughts. Tubers of
thoughts sprout when circumstances arise. These tubers can be
of greed or sex and they can be small or large; there are all
kinds of tubers. Those in which you have an undue interest will
be large and will produce many thoughts. You have to keep
‘observing’ them if you want to dissolve them. These are
thoughts, which are possible to read. One remains tanmayakar
with thoughts he likes and when unpleasant thoughts arise it
instantly becomes evident that he is separate from them.
Clean mind in unpleasant situations
When all that is unpleasant, is tolerated by a clean mind
then one will become a vitarag.
Questioner : What is a clean mind?