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the seeker, is vikalpi (‘I am Chandulal’, he has ego because he
does not have the knowledge of the Self), then how can one do
dhyan? Still, the scriptures say because a vikalpi does dhyan of
the nirvikalpi, he will one day become nirvikalpi. But it does not
allow one to become nirvikalpi and one continues to say, “I have
to do this. I have to do that.” If one gets drowsy, he will say he
wants to eat less, hence he will have to fast. So they meditate
on the nirvikalp state, in order to climb out of the hole of a
vikalpi state.
‘We’ have not just given you a nirleyp Atma i.e. a Soul
which remains absolutely free from all worldly entanglements,
but ‘we’ have also given you nirvikalp samadhi. In the Kramic
path one attains nirvikalp samadhi only when his ego becomes
completely purified to the point of egolessness. Wherever one
has to undergo a process of renunciation or acquisition, there
will always be vikalp there, namely ‘I have to renounce’ or ‘I
have to attain’. Vikalp is bound to occur whenever something
significant has to be attained and trivial things have to be
renounced. There is not just one vikalp but infinite vikalps. To
be strict with disciples or to discipline them is also a vikalp.
True darshan is one that brings samadhi by just looking at
the person. There are some people who make you vomit the
moment you set eyes on them. Why do people constantly do
‘our’ darshan? It is because what they see gives them samadhi.
What is this samadhi like? It is a samadhi which will not go away
even if you try to get rid of it! If you tell the samadhi to go, it
will not. Once the ego of doer-ship is gone, it can never come
back. Samadhi remains in all that you do; when you eat, drink,
walk, talk, etc., the knower, the Self, remains separate from it
all.
The Lord has said, “If you are in the non-self (kalpana)
then you are guilty if you do not think. And if you are the Self
(nirvikalp) then you are guilty if you think.”