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will smoke only four cigarettes, you should mean it; otherwise
you must not say so. You have to be up front with the Maharaj
and tell him that you cannot follow his instructions and, you are
being a Kshatriya (someone who will keep his word). When
‘we’ saw the long bidi ‘we’ thought that only Vaniks (business
class) are like that, but when ‘we’ saw him adding extra leaves
from the bottom, ‘we’ were astounded that not even Lord
Mahavir had such knowledge in His keval Gnan. That is the kind
of knowledge you have! What kind of a man are you? Would
‘we’ not wonder? And on top of that, he served me tea and
snacks!
‘We’ have seen all kinds of human beings, but ‘we’ saw
something in this Sheth that never came into even the Lord’s
vision! ‘Bravo Sheth! ‘We’ still remember him. Then he tells me,
“When I listen to your talk of equanimity, I feel that I should
spend all my time with you, Ambalal.” Bless the Sheth and bless
the Maharaj, too! Then the Sheth tells me, “The Maharaj does
not leave me alone. He is very persistent.” The Maharaj thinks
that he has helped the Sheth gain some control over smoking.
Alas! He does not understand the meaning of control (sanyam).
Renunciation is that which remains naturally and
spontaneously, you do not even have to think about it. What
does the Lord consider renunciation? Pure renunciation is when
one does not become one (tanmayakar) with thoughts that
arise within the mind or with any subatomic particles (parmanus)
of speech that arises. No matter how good or bad the thoughts
that arise in the mind are, the Lord considers it renunciation if
one remains separate from them, and does not become
engrossed in them. The Lord calls it absolute renunciation when
one does not become one with any parmanu of speech that
arises within or expresses externally. This verily is what leads to
moksha. From the worldly perspective, the meaning of
renunciation is different altogether. However, it is not considered
renunciation from the real perspective. Not even a penny’s