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will you gain anything when you are in search for peace? No. So
you have to ask the shopkeeper from the very beginning and
make sure that you are in the right place. Tell bapji (the guru),
“I am willing to spend six months to a year with you if you tell
me to and if I can attain moksha; but only if I attain liberation
and only if all my worries will cease. Otherwise I will search
elsewhere.” For countless past lives all you have done is make
payments to such shopkeepers and still you have not attained
moksha. So tell bapji, “I will pay my dues if you are able to
grant me moksha.” Just test bapji a little in this way! If he gets
angry, you will have your answer right away. You will know
immediately that this is definitely not the shop for liberation.
Despite this make bapji happy, spend a couple of hundred
rupees for him, and be thankful that you are getting away by
doing only that much.
What is the purpose of satsang? It is to settle everything
with equanimity. It is to solve all your puzzles and confusion. The
path of liberation is to know and be free.
Kusang : Company of that which increases the
non-self interaction
There are two types of companies or associations: one is
kusang (bad company, company that harms; company that
takes you away from the Self) and the other is satsang
(company of the eternal; company of the Self and that which
leads to the Self). Satsang enlightens and the inner turmoil
ceases. Kusang increases inner turmoil. Kusang is like fireworks;
it sets your clothes on fire as it goes off. So beware and know
that kusang is a burning fire. Exercise this much restraint. When
you practice restraint and follow a regimen of diet prescribed by
your physician, you will not have the disease. Foods prepared
outside carry bad parmanus; that too is considered kusang. In
this world, bad things happen because there is no awareness,
and not because there is. So maintain awareness.