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will be an immediate reaction of dislike because the reaction is
happening within the non-self. Wherever there is any like-dislike,
it is the entire non-self complex; the Self does not have any like-
dislike. ‘Dada’ never has any dislike; from the moment He
wakes up till bedtime, ‘Dada’ is the same. There is only one
internal state (parinati) that remains constant; ‘Dada’ is
constantly in the eternal bliss of the Self.
Speech of attachment-abhorrence is such that a person
will not speak with respect with his own brother but will flatter
and welcome his doctor, because of a selfish motive that
someday he may need the doctor. My speech is vitaragi; this
vitarag speech is telling you, “Get your work done here, ‘we’ do
not need anything from you.” The vitaragi speech tells you to get
your work accomplished. “Come and get your liberation here”,
is what it is telling you.
That which is shunned through abhorrence will
have to be endured with attachment
You have not become vitaragi as long as you have
attachment-abhorrence. If a person renounces lemons, he
becomes irate if there is lemon in any of the food that comes
before him. This means that what he used to like (raag) will have
to be suffered through abhorrence (dwesh). And anything
renounced through abhorrence will have to be suffered through
attachment. If someone takes a vow not to smoke, and is made
to smoke, he will be resentful that he was made to break his
vow and he will experience internal anger (dwesh). What is
meant by renouncing through raag-dwesh? It means that when
you renounce with abhorrence something that you like, and then
when it comes in front of you, you will like it (raag). That which
is renounced through dwesh-abhorrence, will be suffered
through attachment. Most people have renounced that which
they used to like (raag) and therefore, they have to suffer it
through abhorrence.