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Aptavani-2
“‘I’ am a vessel of infinite faults Oh Lord. If ‘I’ do not see
them, then how will I attain salvation?”
There are infinite mistakes and because they cannot be
seen, they cannot be destroyed. If you do not have any mistakes
within you, then do not sing, “I am a vessel of infinite
mistakes…”, otherwise you will become so. And if you have
infinite mistakes then sing so. If you ask a wealthy Jain who goes
to the derasar about his mistakes, he will say he has only a
couple of mistakes; a little anger and a little greed that is all!
Even the mistakes will ‘know’ that he is being deceitful. That is
why they remain ever fortified.
The biggest mistake of all is swachhand; to act according
to one’s own intellect and ego. An entire army of mistakes has
arisen because of swachhand. The moment one makes a
statement, ‘So, what is wrong in what I am doing?’ he is
finished! He ruins endless lives thereafter.
With the grace and energy that the Gnani Purush bestows
upon you, you will be able to see your mistakes and destroy
them. ‘We’ tell anyone who wants to be free of mistakes, to
stop protecting and feeding their anger, pride, deceit (illusion)
and greed for the duration of only three years. Thereafter
mistakes will die. The definition of a mistake is the protection of
anger, pride, deceit (illusion) and greed. If mistakes are deprived
of the ‘food’ of support and not given any protection for three
years, they will leave you and go somewhere else.
Prakruti of a greedy person
When a greedy person goes to the market he goes to the
place where cheaper vegetables are stacked. The greed within
him says, “This greedy man feeds me readily, so why not take
refuge here?” Therefore in order to destroy his greed, the
greedy person should go where the vegetables are expensive
and buy them without asking the price. He should buy them even
if he has to pay double the price. The greed within him will