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with achetan (non-Self) and loses its self-identity, his real
awareness. This absorption of the Self into the non-Self causes
the charging. Getting lost in whatever one repeatedly remembers
and recollects causes the charging. What do people remember?
It is that towards which they have either extreme attachment
(raag) or extreme abhorrence (dwesh). The attachment and
abhorrence towards that which is discharging creates charging
of new karma. This is because the Self becomes what it identifies
with in the realm of the non-Self. This is how the worldly life is
perpetuated. That, which is charged through the blunder (of
wrong belief of, ‘I am Chandulal’), charged because of illusion,
continues to be discharged.
A woman passing by a shop sees a beautiful sari. She
becomes captivated by its beauty and become engrossed with
thoughts of the sari. There is nothing wrong with her looking at
the sari and appreciating its beauty, but the illusion (moha) that
arises within her for the sari is the problem. The fact that she
sees the sari and likes it is her discharge moha but because she
becomes so engrossed by it, her moha, which was in the process
of being discharged, charges anew again. She is so captivated
by the sari that she actually becomes the length and the breadth
of the sari. Every floral motif and sequin on the sari becomes
ingrained on her being. Her entire self raptures in the sari and
even when she comes home, her chit remains in the sari hanging
in the shop. When her husband notices that she is preoccupied
and asks if she is feeling ill or lost somewhere, little does the
poor man know that while she is physically at home her chit is
hovering in the sari shop. This is what the Lord calls charge
moha, charge illusion.
There is nothing wrong in eating and enjoying the best
foods and desserts, but if the taste of food lingers on and you
have a desire to enjoy it again and again, then it will charge
anew again. When you become engrossed in what you are