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light of the soul)) for liberation.
Suspicion
As people continue to read scriptures, interpreting them
with their own intellect and imagination (svachhand), their
obstinacy increases; this in turn makes their veils of ignorance
(avaran) denser over the self. If reading scriptures enlightens
you, then why do you still stumble? People only stumble in the
dark, how can one stumble in the light? If you claim to have
knowledge, have any of your worries decreased as a result? On
the contrary, your confusion about what is right and what is
wrong has increased along with your doubts and uncertainty.
And where there is uncertainty, suspicion takes hold. Where
there is suspicion, ignorance prevails. The Self does not remain
where there are doubts and suspicions. Gnan is that which
makes one completely free of doubts.
Gnan is such that it will not disturb the stillness of even
a single atom within the body. Doubts or suspicion is the enemy
of the Self. It will make you ‘throw away the Soul’ (loose all
spirituality). Therefore any doubts or suspicions that surface
should be ripped out from their root. Once Self-realization is
acquired and you become firmly established in the awareness of
the Self, is there anything that can shake you? Is there anything
in this world that can snatch away from you what is intrinsically
your own?
Suspicion is a most dangerous disease - one is never able
to tell when it will creep up and how much damage it will do.
For this current life, I can guarantee you that nothing is going to
happen outside the law of vyavasthit. So why then should you
harbor any doubts or suspicions? In an insecure world where
there is no guarantee that you will return home once you leave
to go out, where will you entertain doubts and where not? And
whatever happens, has it not occurred before? Is it anything