Aptavani-1
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after becoming ‘emotional’?
Questioner : It is in motion.
Dadashri : What would happen if the train became
emotional?
Questioner : There would be an accident and thousands
of people may die.
Similarly, as long as the human body is in motion (within
normal state), there is no ‘accident’ or himsa, but when it
becomes emotional, an infinite number of subtle life forms within
the body are killed. Anger, pride, attachment and greed cause
a person to become emotional. Millions of subtle life forms
within the body are killed and the consequences of this violence
will have to be endured in the life to follow. That is why the
Gnani says for you to remain in motion and not become emotional.
During udvega, an extreme emotional stage, many tubers
within explode simultaneously. As they all burst at the same
time, the chit is captured completely and it becomes one with
that situation. Because countless atoms are erupting and are set
in motion, a heavy veil is created over the Self. Just as the
heavy clouds mask the rays of the sun completely, so is the
radiance and knowledge of the real Self-obscured by this extreme
emotional and agitated state. This results in the stifling of the
infinite strength of the Self. The poise of one’s mind and body
is lost. The feeling is akin to being stabbed by a spear. Udvega
therefore creates the greatest veil (avran) over the Self. If one
passes through that, one will achieve a lot of clarity. If one
conquers udvega - the most intense of emotional states - then
all the minor ones will be insignificant. But this is only possible
when one has the knowledge of the Self. In the absence of Self-
realization, it is better if one does not have to experience such
an intense emotional crisis for endless lives, because during such