Aptavani-1
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Committing suicide is a very dangerous ego. When the
ego is shattered, when it gets no nourishment from anywhere,
a person will commit suicide. Consequently that person binds a
life of hell. The lesser the ego, the higher the life form and the
greater the ego, the lower one goes.
Some exercise ego of killing and some exercise ego of
saving lives. God sees both these acts as acts of egoism because
nobody has the power to kill or save any living being; they are
merely being egoistic in claiming to save lives. The person who
saves lives incarnates to a higher life form and the one who kills
will go to a lower life form. There is bondage in both for sure.
Lions have tremendous ego. A lion is the king of the
animal world. He has wandered through all cycles of births and
found happiness nowhere. Finally in his current life form, he
goes around venting his ego through his roars and wails in the
jungle. He desires to be free but does not find the right path.
It is very difficult to find the right path and what is more, it is
even more difficult to encounter the giver of liberation. Countless
circumstances come together and dissipate but only the
circumstance of an encounter with a Gnani will give you the
permanent solution.
Satisfying The Ego
What you see around you is not sansar (the worldly life).
The ego itself is worldly life. In such a world what is wrong if
nothing is satisfied? If a man has borrowed five hundred rupees
from you and when the time comes for him to return the money
he does not do so. Your ego remains unsatisfied. To satisfy your
ego you file a lawsuit, but if that man comes to you pleading and
weeping and gets down on his knees to you, your ego becomes
satisfied and so you will let him go.
This ego is such that it will not let a person entertain the