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and the chit. That struggle stops as soon as the intellect makes
a decision between the two. If the intellect is set aside, the mind
and the chit do not cause any obstructions.
From time immemorial, the chit has been in search of its
home. It continues to wander. It sees all kinds of different things
and consequently all kinds of knowledge-perception (gnan-
darshan) accumulate within. The tendencies of The chit (chitvrutis)
collect whatever it sees, takes its stock, and when the time
comes, it shows it as it is in the form of a scene. If the chit
becomes absorbed in what it sees, it attracts atoms (of what it
sees), these atoms accumulate and form complex tubers, from
which the mind is formed. This mind projects a pamphlet when
the moment is right, the chit will see the image or a picture and
the intellect renders a decision.
These tendencies of your chit that wander outside cease
to do so once I draw them towards ‘me’ (the Self; the Gnan).
The tendencies of your chit thus become bound and that is
liberation.
These impure tendencies (vrutties) of the chit have been
wandering endlessly. When they keep going to a particular place
and if you try to retract them, they will revolt and go to the
same place again. The fact that these chitvrutis return to their
own home, the Self, after Gnan is a wonder in itself. Wherever
the chitvruti wanders, the body too will have to go there. In the
kramik path of liberation one has to cross-endless hurdles of
different phases of the mind and the chit before one reaches the
ego, which still needs to be purified. But for all of you, I have
made you leap over all these levels and placed you directly in
your own abode, your pure Self.
The chit keeps wandering in search of its home, the Self.
It seeks happiness. Wherever the chit becomes still, other parts
of the inner instrument (antahkaran) become still also and that