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you only liked good music but now you have become adjustable
and so now you have neither likes nor dislikes.
Ride Your Mind
Even before Gnan I had the awareness of the thoughts
that arose in the mind and would know that they would not let
me sleep. So I would tell the mind, “Just keep on running. You
are the horse and I am the rider. You can run in whichever
direction you want. It is just you and I.” This would go on until
the morning. It is the law of the world that whatever you try to
control or restrict, will take control over you. When sugar is
rationed in the market, the price of sugar goes up. It is the same
with the mind; if you try to restrict the mind, it will run twice as
fast. So do not try to restrict it. There would be no problem in
restricting the mind if it were obedient. But if it does not listen
to you, then you should let it run till it gets exhausted. Why
should you worry? You have the reins in your hands. But instead
what do people do? They try to control the mind; they try to
suppress it so they can sleep. You should forget about sleeping
because such times present you with an opportunity to ride the
mind. When will you get such an opportunity again?
It is only after riding the mind over and over again that I
have acquired such perfect and non-contradictory Gnan.
The mind is a boat in the ocean of worldly interactions.
People try to destroy the mind to create a state of thoughtlessness
(nirvichar), but such a state cannot be achieved. If a person
were to achieve such a state he would be considered a stone.
What do people mean by a thoughtless state? If their mind
becomes restless in certain matters, they try to suppress it in
those matters but they don’t realize that it will become restless
in other matters. What is the real definition of a thoughtless
state? ‘The one who remains as the Self, completely separate
as the knower and the observer of thoughts that emerge with