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playing. He would not be able to articulate even a word, if he
were to meticulously prearrange it. Only that which has been
recorded will play.
Does it not often occur that even though you firmly make
up your mind that you do not want to talk back to your mother-
in-law or your husband, you end up doing so anyway? What is
it that spills out in the form of words? You had no desire to talk
back. Your husband had no desire to be verbally abused. Then
what makes you talk back? It is the prerecorded record that is
playing, and absolutely no one can change it once it has been
recorded.
There are times when you decide to confront and say
certain things to a person but when you see that person with
five other people, do you not return without uttering a word?
Even if you want to say something you will be tongue-tied, does
that not happen? If speech were under your control, you would
be able to say what you desire, but does that happen? How can
that happen? The speech of this Ambalal Muljibhai too is in the
form of a record, despite having a body in which the Supreme
Lord has completely manifested. I have no power or control
over my speech. All I do is know and observe the kind of
speech that is being uttered by Ambalal. Speech is completely
inanimate. But this speech first touches the Lord present within
before it flows outward and that is why it is spiritually alive. It
is Saraswati (Goddess of speech) herself. The Goddess
Saraswati you see in the pictures is an indirect form of Saraswati,
whereas my speech is direct Saraswati, and one which destroys
your sins of infinite lives.
My speech is completely vitarag, completely syaad-vaad
(does not hurt anyone). The easiest way to recognize a Vitarag
is through his speech. The value you place on this speech is
dependent upon the level of your expertise as a ‘jeweler’ (as