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Experience
Downfall in life due to ‘viradhana’
This is my experienced of the result of
disrespecting one of my gurus… When I
was in the fourth and fifth standards, Miss
Bella used to teach us English. One day, I
had not done my homework so she sent
me out of the classroom. This happened to
me 2 to 3 times. So I started having
negative thoughts about this teacher. All
my friends used to insult Miss Bella and
would make fun of her. I, Along with my
friends, also started disrespecting her.
Two years passed. During those two years,
my disrespect towards this English teacher
resulted in terrible predicament for me.
In my 6th, 7th and 8th standards, I
got very poor result in English. I would
spell the same word differently every time.
I used to lack confidence during English
exams. During my 10th standard, I joined
classes in spoken English but due to
adverse circumstances I could not go to
these classes for more than 5-6 days. Then
I approached my senior for tutoring, but I
could not understand what then taught
me. Even in the 12th standard, I had the
lowest grade in English. Again I had

negative thoughts about English as a
subject. Then I appeared for (CPT)
Entrance Exams, but failed due to poor
marks in English.
Due to pressure from my father
and uncle, I joined the family's business
at the shop. When my father asked me
to write a check, I could do so only after
turning up to two to three check due to
mistakes while writing a name or the
date. I could not study very well
because I was weak in English. I would
feel helpless when anyone talked to me
in English. Once, during a shibir at
Saffrony, while doing 'samayik' I saw
incidents of disrespect (viradhna) I had
towards Miss. Bella. I then realized that
in every case, I was reaping the fruit of
my disrespect! I repeated the samayiks
and did lots of 'pratikraman' and the
dislike towards Miss. Bella got cleared.
Consequently, now I am
attempting to learn English.
Today at my shop, whenever I
have to write a check, I am able to do so
easily, without a single mistake!

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