Songs of Anisha
“If I Lose My Mind”
by Dolly Parton
Mama, it's so good to be back home again
I'm so proud to see that you are looking well
Yes, I know that I look a little weary
Oh, but Mama, I have been through living hell
You know how much I've always loved him, Mama
But he done things to me I couldn't understand
Why, he made me watch him love another woman
And he tried to make me love another man
Mama, can I be your little girl again?
I need you now even more than I did then
And I need a lot of love and understanding
And a lot of time to get me over him
If I lose my mind, Mama, I wanna be here with you
Have them lock me up and see I have good care
But I just couldn't stand his torture any longer
I was afraid of what I'd do if I stayed there
With a tortured soul
He crawled up to her and confessed
How could a mother look upon the infant she had nurtured lovingly
Now a monster.
Bless him she did as a woman of faith she was
Bless me not! He cried
For as you bless me you curse me
Forgive me instead
My forgiveness would make no difference
For you have washed your hands with
The blood of the innocent
And only God can cleanse them for you my son!
Tortured and idle again he was
When another thought came to mind
If only he could be no more
That would lessen his pain
He could try to make peace in the afterlife
Hoping his father would understand
With this he departed, just the way his father had.
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