A Look Inside the Little Black Book | Page 4

This is where it all begins… Journal Entry One Dear Daniel, I just sent you off to war. Well, I guess I didn’t do it. But it feels like it. I have finally stopped crying long enough to start this journal. I hear journaling is supposed to make me feel better. I can’t imagine anything making me feel better—except you coming home. But, here it goes. I want to tell you how proud I am of you! I know that you have wanted to follow in your father’s footsteps all of your life, but to actually join the military and go to some strange and to fight in a war, well that is an amazing thing Daniel. I wish you didn’t want to go; but I get it. And I am proud— scared—but proud. I support your decision and I will stand by you no matter what. I mean that with all my heart. I don’t know how I will make it without my best friend. It is ironic that all the things I love about you most are the very things that made you want to go fight for your country. You are kind and wise, brave and courageous. You are also trustworthy and loyal. I can tell you everything and anything. Who do I share my secrets and day-to-day stuff with now? Everyone else seems to blame me for the crap that happens in my life; you never do. You just love me. You have always stayed by me…until now. Well, that’s not fair. Sorry. I know you didn’t really leave me. I am just being a baby. (I guess I can be a baby right now, it is my journal!). I will try to remember that you will always love me. I hope you can remember that I always love you too. You always seem to see the good in people. You fought for me when I couldn’t fight for myself. Now you are fighting for a country that I am not sure understands what a sacrifice you are making for them. No matter. You are my hero, Daniel. You have always been my hero and you always will be. Now you are the hero for others too. I will always be grateful that God gave you to me. Well, enough for now. Tears are coming again. But I am going to be praying for you— constantly.