Daniel’s crazy risks…
Funny, I think we all got a bit accustomed to the danger. We started taking incredible
chances with our lives. It seems pretty crazy now. Maybe that is why I do crazy things
now. Sometimes it feels like I have to get some kind of ‘thrill’ in order to feel like I am
truly living. I know I drive too fast sometimes, that’s for sure.
There is something about being in a war that is incomprehensible. No matter how
hard I try, I just can’t get my mind around it. Nothing makes sense. It’s as if the whole
world has been turned upside down. We were supposed to act as if everything was normal.
We would get up and start working, but it wasn’t like a normal job, at least mine wasn’t it.
At this new job something could happen at any minute, something that could take my
life, all of our lives. Or, you may just have to kill at any minute. You had to choose—and
choose fast. Yet it wasn’t a choice- -not if you want to survive. No wonder I can’t sleep.
No wonder I can’t even rest. I don’t feel safe. I wonder if I will ever feel safe again.