I perched my chin on my hands and stared into the water . What was it about the sea that lured us to it ? We longed to mount her tides and reside in her shallows . We even built boats to be closer to her . For we have storms in our heads and salt in our blood too .
I wanted the water to deliver him to me . To stir her currents all those leagues below and bring him to me . Let the flesh fall from his bones when I hold him . I ’ ll look into his eyes , blind as pearls … Resurrect my monster !
I slammed my fists repeatedly against the boat – I felt like my heart would stop any second . I couldn ’ t stand the blackness that funnelled through me in endless quiet moments . Fuck this unbearable reality of life after him !
But someone was to blame . That distress signal echoed down the corridors of my brain , like a calling . An